I was given the chance to attend the premier of the movie “A Quiet Place” for free as my friend had free tickets. At first, I was a bit reluctant to go as it is classified as a thriller horror show and I don’t do those two categories well. However, after endless persuasion, I finally decided to go and brought three other friends along. The show was amazing. It is as if you are soaked in the movie and standing at a corner watching all of it happens in front of your eyes. The suspense was killing me and I couldn’t even shout aloud as the whole cinema was, just as its name says, a quiet place. All I could do was shout internally and sing some songs during scenes that I couldn’t watch. After the show, I couldn’t leave the hall immediately and had to sit down and gather my breath and regulate my heart beat.
It has been 5 weeks since I have been in university and everything is okay. I’m getting along fine compared to in college. I can mix around with people and learn how to express myself not suppress myself. I spend loads of time with my friends and getting to know them. Everyday pass by quickly due to the number of pages we have to read, the amount of preparation we have to do for our group discussion and presentation. Most of the nights, I couldn’t sleep early and only fall into bed at 4 or 5a.m. but all in all, I feel happy and comfortable.
After a fully packed day yesterday and only sleeping 3 hours before going to church, I immediately knock off when I reach home in the afternoon, not even minding my empty stomach. Sadly, I was woken up due to a nightmare after only 2 hours of sleep. My dream started out with me walking back from a mall after shopping. Along the way, I saw my parents and we got together. However, I felt something constantly following and staring at me. I know what was gonna happen and did not want to walk back to my hostel alone. I told my parents my suspicions but they just brush it off. In desperation, I reminded my mother the incident that happen last time which ends up me waking up in a hospital bed. Finally, they believe me. The scene then suddenly change to a resort where there is a pool with a red water slide. My friends and I took turns going on the slide. They wanted to go back home but I asked them not to leave me as I was afraid and did not know who to call. Then, it changed to another scene where I was at an aunty’s house. The 3 assassins managed to catch up with me. Luckily, I was agile and filled with energy and avoided the attacks of two of the man but when the woman tried to assault me, I woke up. I’m sure in the dream I have died. We were jumping from roofs to roofs and climbing walls and my hands were sweating profusely, even now when I’m typing. I woke up in a start and was very dismayed. I wanted to talk to someone so, I called my mother. After talking to her, I felt better.
Today, I decided not to join my friends to study. The last few weeks have been hectic and I realized I did not have much me time. Today, I grab some lunch/dinner then I walked out of my room, in search of a quiet place where I can be myself, reflect on what has happen the past week and reassess my relationship with God that I neglected. Today, I found this place, far away from many people, on the rooftop staring at the buildings that stand tall around me and the lights that are always shining in the darkness of night. I enjoy the company of my friends but sometimes, you just have to get out of everything and just enjoy yourself. Appreciate who you are and remember that it is God who is the most important being in your life.